4/21/2026
Today is the first proper day working on this site! Currently I'm doing this instead of writing a converter for my Com Tech course because I refuse. If you're going to ask me to make the code with ChatGPT,then I'm not making the code am I??!? It's the principle, really. If I'm not doing the work, then I'm not fucking learning. Education is a privilege, asshole >:/ I'm not normally one to hate a teacher, but some people get on my nerves.
As of writing it is now 11:47 at night, so I guess I should try and squish this in before tomorrow! I truly do try to love school. to love my day-to-day, but I hate being a parent all of a sudden. being the anxious driver who's constantly trying not to fall into depression. I feel myself slip, late at night like this. All I want to do is give myself to the work, but it doesn't want me back.
Today is also Elliot's birthday! enjoy YOUR day man, wishing you every kind of well!
4/22/2026
Overall an uncomplicated day; just did some school work, a couple of dumbfuck tests (which I passed. Huzzah.), and got to thinking about how the little girl in Pragmata is the lawful good version of the Andor prison. Truly an energy we need more of.
4/23/2026
Figured out that instead of hogg-boggle-ing photos with align on this, I can just make my own spreads on Canva, Which is way nicer for me because that's how I've been making my journal for years now. "Oh but jam, Canva is super expensive!" non0 my friend. I'm still using my account from middle school. And I will continue to use it until my sister graduates. (as she has offered to kindly hand her account down to me.) I feel no shame.
4/24/2026
Started a shrine list! It'll probably just be a nice way to keep my schoolwork in one place, but hey, maybe I will become less insufferable to people. I hate being autistic.
4/29/2026
sorry I haven't updated this in a couple of days, or I suppose that's what's nice about this! There are no comments to reply to too, no messages, no notifications. (outside the actual neocity site, but I can just turn the mailing list off so it's easy to ignore) I remodeled the index page today! I kept trying to draw a sonar or some shit to represent me, but honestly I just couldn't. I don't know why, but anything I tried just made me look like a stranger or just a tad too strange.
So, for the sake of lore jammakesjunk™ is invisible from now on.
I have no stakes both here or elsewhere! I am but a flicker of electricity, easy to ignore but annoying because you forgot to pay your power bill and know the house is about to need air conditioning. Global warming is a bitch.
4/30/2026
finally figured out how to add gif's. (my marks are fine, I'm smart, I promise!!! PLS IM NOT LYING!!!) all gif's lead back to where I found them!
If they dont then uh. . . its broken. or I forgot. Dont @me
5/10/2026
I haven't updated this in a minute, it just gets exhausting very quickly (on top of school and everything I mean). How is it that I do everything asked of me and yet there's still more to do?
5/12/2026
weird little school vent, but how hard can it be to
- tell me when something is due?
- if I spelled something wrong?
- or how to improve?
like for god’s sake when I ask you to look over my paper and let me know how to improve it, you say its good, and then I only get a 60% on it. I CAN DO BETTER!!! Bruhhhhh.
6/01/2026
My teacher:" Just wanted to let you know, I am checking for AI on this and because a ton of you use gemni, I hope you know it's the easiest to spot. Excited to give some of you a 20%!" bars. Also happy pride to those of us with pronouns and stuff!